All I can say is that I have been less than motivated about making any blog entries. That’s not to say I didn’t have anything to write about. On the contrary, I’ve had much going on in my mind for the past few months. I think I would need to look back on my last few entries to see when I last wrote anything of significance.
Okay, I looked and the last time I wrote anything with meat to it was back in November when I was in Dominican for work. So what the heck has been happening since then? Well, let’s see. Where shall I start? It’s not that there’s been a whole lot happening, it’s a question of what aspect of my life should I talk about?
Work has, since that entry, slowly been building up into a maelstrom of chaos. When our entire Core department had its year end meeting, some things were mentioned that alluded to changes in the new year. The new year came and some of the changes took place. These changes did not involve me. Then, with a new CEO taking the reigns, there’s been even more announcements and changes. This latest change was announced right after we had our big unit meeting that discussed what’s been happening in our little world. Throw in the CEO’s latest news and our world has been thrown a curve ball. The VP for our unit had a short meeting with us after that announcement to further elaborate (at least as much as was known at the time) and to field any questions. Of course, the question about the additional 200 head count for one of the departments was raised. The VP answered it the best he can, that the work was still there and the manpower is still needed. Now the question remains: Will this manpower be hired here or somewhere else?
Friday evening as I was getting ready to head home after a very long afternoon, a few of my colleagues were still hanging about. Of course, the big topic of discussion was the week’s announcement from the CEO and what it means for us. Already there’s been some talk about any hiring/transfers being put on hold. That is to be expected until we know what’s what. I had also heard that our VP was planning to head down to Dallas this week for a meeting. I hope he comes back with some good news.
Aside from work, my personal life has been somewhat less than exciting. I hadn’t heard from that “special” guy until sometime ago. I guess all hell has broken loose for him. It seems that he has to go in for further chemo treatment.
Aside from that, he may not be very communicative for a while. In his words, “All I feel like doing is hiding until it’s over.” I feel for him. I wish he were more receptive to some sort of moral support while he goes through this. Sadly, it seems that he is willing to let me go for the time being. I guess he does not find it fair to have me waiting around. It won’t be terribly easy for me as he seems to occupy a small piece of my heart. I can’t say for sure if the L word is a factor or not. It’s such a tricky thing to say whether you are truly in love with someone or just in heavy like with the person. Anyway…
So to add to the building chaos, during a time after he had last written and before I finally wrote back a reply, I had gone back to perusing the sites. Not that I really wanted to, but I guess I was trying to find a distraction. Well, last week, an ad on craigslist did catch my eye and I wrote a response to it. The guy wrote back with a picture. Not a bad looking fellow. When I read his response, something he wrote caught my attention. He mentioned a favorite band. It sounded familiar. I went to my craigslist email account and whaddya know? He had responded to my ad back in June! But, I think by the time he had replied, I was already dealing with a bunch of other responses. Craigslist seems to be a rather small world.
Well, after exchanging a few emails and one phone call later, we had plans to meet up Friday evening. However, my heart got in the way of things when on Thursday I had finally gotten around to writing back to the other guy. He almost immediately wrote back. That’s when I found out he was undergoing treatment for his cancer. I felt a bit saddened that he had to go that way. I was also feeling sad because I missed him and he expressed that he wished he could have met up with me somehow, but I guess it just didn’t work out for him. Anyway, with my head and heart in a bit of turmoil, I called the other guy to cancel the evening. I said I was working late, which was kinda true, and that maybe we could meet up for a movie or something the following week. He seemed okay with that. He did wish me a happy Valentine’s Day, at least.
So that, more or less, brings us to this weekend. Yesterday, I dragged by sorry out-of-shape ass to cardio in the morning. Managed to survive that. Then after lunch and a shower, I went over to the pet shop to buy some food and to check out the cat adoption clinic. Thankfully, I did not walk out with a cat. Not that I could afford one at the moment since their adoption fees were $150, but after having just gotten Cleo in September, I think I’d like to at least have a stable and somewhat peaceful household for a little while.
Today is Valentine’s Day as well as Chinese New Year. So Happy Chinese Valentine’s Day New Year! Okay, that sounded a bit weird.